Jesusshine

With Jesus

2007-09-10T13:16:00.000+08:00

no matter what may come my ways,
no matter what i am going through,
with Jesus I can make it.

some friends was very concern about me,
they ask whether my relationship with God still going on?
do i still wait on the Lord for any decision i make?
have i forgotten that God is the Lord of my life?

i just wonder, if i have forgotten God,
can i still survive and live a life that so blessed??
i just receive my result in distric and family medicine posting.
i got a C+, is low actually, but i pass.
i thank God for it, i know how i got through it,
it was His blessing all these while.

hard times and difficult times,
i thank God for it.
yes, i did complain and blaming at first,
but i got to faithful in these small little things,
so that God can entrust me with bigger things!!!

i realize that the first time christian being mention in the bible,
is when they live like Christ, they do what Christ did.
they helps those in needs, they heal the sicks, they cast out demons.
so are we christian??
these gifts are given not only to the apostles but every christians.
we are suppose partaking the divine nature like what the bible say!!
but are we???

long long time

2007-08-28T16:12:00.000+08:00

for long not blogging,
that is not the end,
not even the beginning of the end,
rather the end of beginning.

so, here am i, back to shine for Jesus.
this is a new beginning, a new season!!
things of course happen like waves, it haven't stop.
life still in the process of painting.
who hold the pencil?
Noone else but He!!
Thank him that my life is colourful.

what happen is that,
in between the moment of disappearing of Joshua,
he has facing a lot of events that make him feel weak,
but actually make him stronger!!
you will see the one blogging right now is much more stronger than before!!
He was shortsighted and blaiming the One that allow him to go through such a hard time.
to him this is really a hard time!!
but now He preparing to receive the promises that God have make in his life!!
miracles and wonders are not uncommon to him.
He is seeing these as a norm in life!!!
death rises, sick heals, the blind sees..
mountain bow and ocean obey.
Jesus the creator, the hope of glory is within him!!

noone else but He!!

Synergy Concert

2007-06-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

wow, synergy concert was great!! God is great!! we are one as we work together for God!!

God give us joy as we serve Him!! It is great to see differents one serving God with patient!!

Let us serve Him with our heart then His joy will be complete in us!!!

bethany

2007-05-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

bethany is my second home!!!
i have my brothers and sisters here!!!
we are one big family share the same blood through Jesus!!!
it is so good to be in the family!!!
we are accepting each other as we are.
there are times when we have conflicts
and there are times when we get fun!!!
we are sharing our life together!!!
i thank God for putting different ones in my life,
i also thank God that i can be part of others life!!!
we do have different ideas, opinions and feelings,
so let us share it so that we can be one!!
i am just an eye may be, so i need everyone of you to be whole!!
and let Jesus be the head!! ya!!
let us loves one anothers as Jesus has loves!!!
and let us loves not with words but deeds!!!
i love you all!!!

back back back

2007-05-18T10:18:00.000+08:00

hey, some of you have heard me say that when i am back,
there are somethings i need to face, somethings i need to do,
yup, facing it now!!!
i am glad that God is faithful!!!
Anyway, bethany has change alot, trying to fit myself in,
and it take only a short while, here is always my home mah!!!

someone ask me do i have a girlfriend in sibu???
i will have to say no loh!!!
people like me very hard to find one lah!!
hehe, dont make me feel desperate about it!!!
friends all coupling up themselves, young people everywhere also like that!!!
of course i have good feeling toward someone,
but i will always have this in my heart-->
is she the one that God prepare for me??
how to wait and know that she is the one!!
some leaders tell me just guess lah,
some say when the time come you will know!!!
telling my true feeling to you all,
i really dont know how to wait and find for the perfect one,
but i just trust in God!!
do you know that there are times i go by my feeling,
and it fails me!!! it hurts!!!
of course my hormones and my emotions make a lot of control!!!
but i pray that God His spirit govern me and the peace of God guard my heart and mind!!!
i do sin and my mind go wild!!
God loves me and make me strong in each area!!!
i pray that my blog readers will be real as well, do not act like you are so spiritual!!
remind you, we are just human being that need God grace!!
even when we grow older in the Lord, we need even more!!!
God loves you more than anyone else!!
He will be there for you!!

finish 3rd year!!!

2007-05-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

just finish paediatric posting!!!
finishing 3rd year!!!
it is all by God grace!!!
i cant do it on my own!!!!

Here in sibu i make alot of new friends!!!
suddenly dont feel like going back to Kuching!!!
i will miss them alot!!!

anywhere see u all in Kuching!!!
for those who are far away from me!!!
Dont worry we are not too far!!!
u will be in my heart!!!

i have been tagged

2007-03-19T13:33:00.000+08:00

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: joshua
Birth Date: 19.8.1984
Current Status: Single

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : I'm a MAN
My Fears : alone and dark
My Perfect Pizza :Hawaiian Supreme

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : What is plan for today?
My Bedtime : Between 12 and 1am
My Most Missed Memory: have big dreams together with joseph and darren, 'DREAM TEAM' in the basketball world with mervyn, melvin, darren and kenneth..

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: both
McDonald's or Burger King: never try Burger King, i think i like both, i like KFC most!!!
Single or Group Dates: Group la, i like friends mah
Adidas or Nike: both
Tea or Nestea: both
Chocolate or Vanilla: both
Cappuccino or Coffee: both

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: never smoked, i cant stand the smell
Curse: dont like at all
Take a Shower: that is my concert time, i can really sing in the shower!!
Have a Crush: Used to
Think You've Been In Love: wish to
Go To School: Yeah
Want To Get Married: Of course
Believe In Yourself: sometimes i dont
Think You're A Health Freak: yes, i am

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: try once not that nice
Gone To The Mall : wish kuching got mall like Midvalley!!
Been On Stage: got fear but have a great memory when i represented 20 leo's club presidents to give a speech
Eaten Sushi: i want to try
Dyed Your Hair: i want to if can

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: Whats a stripping game?
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yeah but that is not me

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: 25.

LAYER 9: IN A GUY/GIRL...
Best Eye Colour: shiny and big
Best Hair Colour: black
Short Hair or Long Hair: long

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: Completing this tag thing
An Hour Ago: movie and lunch
4.5 Hours Ago: examine a few patients
1 Month Ago: getting ready for cny
1 Year Ago: Not sure, I guess preparing for exam

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : God, My family, My brothers, my friends, food, sea, 'titanic' ship, nature, travelling, music, helping out, chocolates, pizza, movie,
I hate: Pride, peaple with mask
I hide: my failures, my shame, my hurts...
I miss: my brothers
I need: Be more real and a life partner.

mood like weather

2007-03-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

Exam in one weeks time,
i am still dont want to study,
i should say i have not started yet!!!
always feel so heavy to lift up any books!!!
my eyes stick to the movie series!!!
..
what happen to me actually??
anytime my world become stormy,
lightning and tunder come anytime!!!
my mood swing so fast that
sometimes i just doubt my own feeling.
..
i cannot continue like this
or else i cant study lah!!

Miri

2007-03-15T08:32:00.000+08:00

the trip to miri is great!!!
tiring but enyoy it so much!!!
since long wanted to go Miri,
always heard of the beaches so nice,
yup, after i saw the beaches and the sunset,
i feel like going back there one day!!
the houses just by the sea side and it was big!!!
as big as palace!!

joining the youth retreat,
it was great,
seeing brothers and sisters in different place worshiping God,
different race, different culture,
but what link us together is the love of christ
and His blood that pour out for us!!!

what i have bring back from the camp,
is that i am not going to find my partner so desperately!!!
the story of rebecca tell me that
God will always prepare with His timing with His purpose!!!
rebecca just willing and humbly serve without any complain!!!
God honours that!!!
and when time comes God make her become the wife of isaac!!!

orthopaedic, bony man

2007-03-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

people say this posting very boring.
yup, only due with bone and soft tissue,
accidents, gun shot, trauma, blood, wounds, scars.....
at first get scared with it, then boring!!!!!
only 6 weeks in orthopaedic posting,
need to learn as mush as possible,
but still very boring....
probably i don't like skeletan.
also a lot to remember different parts of bones and joints.
but will begin to loves it, and i want to get excited about it!!!!!
it is God creation boh!!!!!
He has so wonderfully made it, do i dare to say boring....
no mah, cannot mah,
so going to explore a bit and let my Father begin to reveal much!!!!
He is the creator of the universe,
i just need to ask Him how He wonderfully made me!!!
Father, You are so amazing!!! How you wonderfully made me????

holidays end :<

2007-02-24T13:55:00.000+08:00

new year holiday end soon,
go back to routine again,
knowing i have pass my O & G posting,
really praise Him for His favors always upon me!!!
a glimps of eyes, i dont know how i gone through it!!!
and i am going to finish my 3rd year without reliasing it!!!
even it is still a long way to go!!!
i am not afraid anymore, He is with me!!!

holiday make me lazy even more,
didnt touch my books at all.
movies, movies, movies,
i love movies!!
i have change my taste of movies,
taiwan movies bring me a lot of laugter!!!
'wei siao pasta', 'lan qiu bu luo'
many more!!!
it is really great!!!
enjoy very much!!!

food never stop,
i am still growing but side way,
anyway the more i eat,
hope it can boost me to play basketball more!!!

meeting friends,
some old friends, having good time together!!!
chating and looking at how they have changed,
grown up should i say,
wow i cannot deny that we are getting older!!!

change

2007-02-23T14:55:00.000+08:00

as time pass, thing has changed.
the world is marching to advanced era.
things changed, peolple changed,
i will become insane if i remain the same.
one of my friend said that.
..
looking back over my pass,
surely i have changed.
am i growing toward the glory of God ,
or more look like the world.
i check myself, is the fruit of the Spirit reveal in me?
a good tree bear good fruit.
am i a good tree?
..
well, i have become so much of self concious.
i am so concern how the people look at me.
i become more kia su, more pretentive.
i hate wearing a mask.
i hate to become a religious folk.
talk like one, act like one..
..
i just want to be Jesus consious,
actually the more i try to act or talk like a holy saint,
i become insane.
it is only behavior modification, but not life transformation.
i just want to be Jesus consious,
what He do, i do.
who He is, so i am.
He is righteous before God, so am i.
when i know i am righteous like Him,
i dont want to care how people look at me anymore.
let them jugde me through my fruit.
Father, i am in Christ as His spirit abide in me forever!!!

Baby

2007-02-02T10:18:00.000+08:00

6 weeks in O&G posting. by the way O&G stand for Obstretic and Gynaecology.
Everyday see women, young, old, thin and thick!!
manage to delivered 3 babies with my big strong hands.
Holding the small baby in my hands,
knowing that God has a great plan for this baby,
i will never know who is he/she going to be,
but the Lord has started His great plan!!!
the baby is so ignocent, he/she dont know what happen,
just begin to cry, I can say that they are stress free.
do they need to worry??
The Angels watch over them.
yes, it is same for me,
God's angels are watching over me,
my heavenly Father is watching over me.
but i just need faith to believe and feel Him!!!

2007-01-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

trapping in the rain,

dont know who to blaim,

am i making complaint?

feeling a bit lame,

looking to the drain,

but i begin to feel contented,

i am not a saint,

just a mere man,

trying what i can.

why?

2006-12-21T12:57:00.000+08:00

these time i suppose to study hard for my medical posting exam!!!
i came home(home sick mah)!!!
didnt really study cause a bit stress that why i have escape from the stress situation!!!
back home here, i watch movie(home alone, Erogon) great movie!!! eat and sleep!!!
i complain feel time about stress tough i am not in the situation anymore!!!
i know i havent escape from the stress--preexam syndrome!!!
any medication??
i know God's favor has upon me and i know i will pass this exam by His grace,
just that something hold me back!!
what is that??
Father, nothing else disqualify me to receive blessing from You,
i reject the preexam syndrome,
and receive Your favor and good result for this medical posting!!!
in Jesus name, Amen!!

how much is my blog worth?

2006-12-08T10:07:00.000+08:00

$0.00
my blog is worth $0.00
because Jesusshine blog is to shine for Jesus,
how can that be count?
it is priceless!!!
no balance when you value it with the price of the earth.
..
let u know,
as i begin today with my new page of life,
i thank God for He remind me His great love for me,
i am a sinner because Adam sin,
my sin nature make me sin all the way!!
someone say it is unfair,
at least i become sinner if i sin.
but it is even unfair,
Jesus make me righteous,
i no need to do righteous thing to make me righteous,
and my righteous nature in Him begin to produce the fruit of righteousness,
love, joy, peace, long suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control!!
effortlessly i begin to develop this nature,
even self-control is not my own will power,
where i struggle so much to control my desire,
but it is His spirit that work in me!!
unless u believe the power of the Holy spirit can change u from inside out,
u will still trying ur very best to change and it will never happen!!!
THIS IS THE TRUTH NOT FACT!!
..
bible say i am the light, do you think a light can loss it shineness?
no,even as it is dim it will still shine in the darkness,
i will try to hide, but i will still be shining!!!
bible say i am the salt, do you think i will lost my saltiness?
i lost my saltiness, then i will not be call salt anymore, probably i am just sand!!
when the bible say i am salt, i am light, nothing can change the truth!!
it will become a fact!!
i never heard of light that cannot shine, salt that is not salty!!
the truth is the light will shine, the salt will be salty!!!
..
how much the blog worth now?
am i putting facts or entertainments to value Jesusshine blog?
this is truth that cannot be measure with money, but faith!!
do u believe it?
Jesus will shine if you believe, Jesus will still shine if you dont believe,
so dont measure Jesusshine blog with money!!

I AM NOT A FISH!!!

2006-12-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

what should i say?
people showing thier real-self--'self-fish'
i am not 'fish', but i begin to become 'fish' as well,
it is not nice to become 'fish'.
people become 'fishy',
what must i did?
..
i reliase that i become like them as well,
but i just felt not good,
it is not my councius that tell me,
it is my nature,
i am not a 'fish',
that's why it really make me felt uncomfortable!!
..
by now, better dont use the word 'fish',
it is self-fish that i refer to.
some of my coursemates will only think of their benefit,
would do anything to get any opportunity in learning,
trying to grasp as much patients as possible,
sad to say that it slowly everyone become like that.
even the disciple whom Jesus loves, Joshua also become self-fish.
he doesnt like to become like that,
His nature is not fish but fruit of the spirit!!
..
He feel bad and he feel scared too because the opportunity will be grasp by others!!
anyway, from now own, i will only rely on God and His truths not the facts.
the facts is people becoming fish, joshua will still the beloved child of God.
He will not be scared or fish anymore, He trust His favor!!
i am not a fish!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-22T13:10:00.000+08:00

Christ has offer the perfect sacrifice!!!

2006-11-21T13:33:00.000+08:00

I am not looking

for men approval,

but God acceptance!!!

Human nature

2006-11-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

envy,
jealousy,
kia su,
is it part of the human nature?
.
let us not gossip but discuss here!!
i can only say these are THE FALLEN HUMAN NATURE!!!
talking to differents one make me 'see through' their heart,
observing their action make me feel like not to friend with them!!
but all the more i need to be there,
or else they will loose friends one by one!!!
this situation happening,
and i am not suppose to be like others to wear a color spect and look at them,
they will be alone in the end!!
after all i am not that good other!!!
.
someone preach do you act like a christian?
i ponder for a while,
this really speak to me!!
i do not act like a christian,
i am a christian.
i am spirit-feel and born again child of God,
the fruit of the spirit in me is revealing for His glory!!
i am a human being like others but i am also a born again new creation,
some old nature still there,
but i am renewing and transforming my mind with the word of God day by day.
from a caterpilar, will i transform into a beautiful butterfly!!!
.
a butterfly doesnt need to learn how to fly,
a christian doestnt need to learn to act,
but the fruit of the spirit will be seen!!
as i am transforming myself with the word of God,
i want to give Him glory all the more!!!
i am more and more like Him!!!
.
let envy, jealous, kia su be free!!!
let love, joy, peace, long suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control be reveal day by day as i grow in Him and to be more like Him!!!

2006-10-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

my blog is not cool,
my blog is not hot either,
my blog is to shine for jesus!!!
do u believe that when u know u are the child of God,
good things started to chase over u!!!
so long not sharing in the blog, the testimonies has pile up,
the main one, i pass my surgical posting!!! going back to kuching soon!!!

reading so many blogs knowing that life is so colourful,
it really worth while to live as Christ has given us life, and life more abundancely!!!
they know they are child of God
and life in this foreign land--earth is not for us to forget our identity!!
until and unless u know ur identity, u cant enjoy life!!!

last night i get a big mirror stick onto the wall in front of my study table,
so every time i study, i will have chance to look at the handsome one!!
i wrote down a phrase as well--'beloved Child of God'!!
this is to remind myself i am a child of God and my Father loves me!!
i like what jolina said friends and her sis are far away,
but they are in her heart always.
My Father seem to be far away,
but actually He is near in my heart!!

mirror reflects the image,
image and identity, do they match?
the one you see, is it the one God see?
do you see a child of God,
as He is your Father and He is God!!

a child of God I am,
He has call me by name,
to this foreign land i have came,
always remember my identity is still the same!!!

GOOD BYE

2006-10-04T08:28:00.000+08:00

Until u lost something than only u will appreciate what u have. Since young, I don’t have much sense of belonging, might be due to I am in the state of lacking. Many times, I just feel that I don’t have the things that I need, the things that I want. Now as I grown up, I have my own little things, I started to own them, I begin to scared I will lost them. I treasure them very much.I just want to appreciate them as I have them.

This evening, I attended a funeral along with my friends, uncle Peter is our house owner. Since the day I came to sibu, he is there helping us. He is the one who come to us every morning, every evening to encourage us, to talk with us. I don’t really talk much to him, but I know he has so much care of us. As I went in the house, the sorrow, the feeling of lost was so strong. There is a feeling of missing!!!

Life is just so short, I know where he is now, I am glad that he is back to the Father. But there will be always have something missing. Someone or something that has passes by your life, it might be a short while but he will always be in ur memory. Even though u will lost memory, but he will never lost in the path that you has walk through. As, you look back, there will a shadow.

Thank you, Uncle Peter. U have made me understand to treasure each one that has come along in the path of life.

Goodbye, uncle Peter.

Marathon

2006-10-03T12:53:00.000+08:00

Marathon,
medical course.....
one of my friend quit, another one still thinking about it,
before this, there were two friends had left us :<
it is not only five years journey,
but whole life,
life itself is a marathon,
to run the race is not base on how interligent or how skillful you are,
it is all about press on, what are u holding on,
this friend of mine quit because he reliase that he has no interest,
anyway i am glad that he is not wasting his time.....
i know this time is the peak of my life,
i will have to make full use of it and make it meaningful,
God indeed make my life meaningful in the medical course.
i will hold on to the end, cause i hold on to His plan....
i am glad, and i dont want to give up......

Father, i will not give up!!!

'My son, I AM proud of u!!'

2006-10-03T12:39:00.000+08:00

it is new posting. medicine posting is not like surgical posting, it is lot difference.
it is more difficult because it cover more disease. will try my best. :)
chronic cough for more than two weeks, friends started to worried,
some more cough out sputum mixed with blood yesterday morning,
went to A & E department,
took a chest x-ray, and sputum for culture to rule out TB.
hehe.. everyone was shock....
dont worry, i wont get TB... i am claimed by the blood of the Jesus,
no disease can attack this temple of the Holy Ghost!!
symptoms are not meant to be there as well,
i know who i am, and i am not doubtful about my identity,
i am son of God, son of the Most High God,
with Jesus as my big Brother,
all my Father will say is 'My son, I AM proud of u!!'

Jesusshine!!!

2006-09-26T10:55:00.000+08:00

just after long case exam!!!
Praise God, i get an easy case, i presented this before,
during clarking the patient, i was so nervours, sweating,
even the nurses give me tissues to wipe!!
anyway, post-opperative appendicitis is my long case,
patient has gone through the operation the night before,
so of course i know the diagnosis,
anyway, it is not me that so lucky,
it is His favor that never leave me!!
still coughing, was worried will affected my presentation,
but God has suppress my cough while i am presenting,
can u imagine only after my presentation,
i started coughing again!!
tomorrow will have the samething happen again,
cause His favor never leave me!!
and surely u will see me posting another testimony!!!
i have created this blog for no reason but to let Jesusshine!!!
Thank You, Jesus!!!

PES

2006-09-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

fever, headache, cough, sore throat.....
PES---pre-exam syndrome
only few more days to go,
my voice getting worse,
how am i running commentary during the exam??
orally, i have lost the battle!! am i consider the loser??
long case, and 2 short cases,
how am i communicate with the patients??
how am i going to present the case and answering the examiner questions??

while i am complaining and worring,
SMSes reminded me the LORD has won the battle for me!!
i has pass this surcical posting exam!!! In jesus name, amen!!
thank you, Jesus..

what i see

2006-09-18T12:28:00.000+08:00

what i see is there is nothing good!!
what i see is the exam date getting nearer!!
what i see is the thick thick books cannot finish reading!!
what i see is the disease that will bring me a death sentence!!
what i see is the examiners going to ask me questions that so hard to be answers!!
what i see is that i have lost peace, lost strength, at the end i lost hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.....
what i see is just what i see!!
if only i can see God, then i will have no need to see what i see!!
anyway, faith is not about what i see, is all about what i believe!!!!
i can see nothing, but behold the glory of God in the eyes of faith!!!!!

2006-09-15T09:16:00.000+08:00

Pancreatitis, Eosophageal carcinoma, Appedicitis,

Diverticulosis, Intestinal obstruction,

Renal Calculi, Peptic ulcer, Cholecystitis.......

Lots lots more!!

this is what i have to know before the exam,

not only knowing, but remeber each single details!!

long case, and short case exam,

one patient given , i need to approach him,

to take history, to examine him,

and to come out with a diagnosis....

communication skills, examination skills, background knowledge.....

it is not only sciences

but also an art in the process of getting the diagnosis...

what if the patient cannot understand chinese or malay at all?

i dont understand iban and fookchow

what if the patient is old?

He cant really provide me the information or give me the wrong information?

what if the patient have a very complicated signs and symptoms,

i cant come out with a correct dianosis?

what if i cant finish the history and examine of the patient in time?

so much of worrries!!!!

i cast all this unto You, Jesus!!!

without Your favor, my hardwork is in vain!!

It is You Lord who give me marks!!

Thank you, Jesus!!

Thank you, my friend!!

2006-09-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

Friend are not game to play,

nor a word to say,

it doesn't start in march,

end in may,

to friend life must lay.

the price that need to pay,

that to give up everyday!!

friend like potter and clay,

shaping life and way.

say thank you dont delay,

i make it on today.

thank you, my friend.

Thank you Jesusshine bloggers...........

From Sibu to Kuching & Kuching to Sibu

2006-09-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

come back from kch!!

Night of fire was great, more than 3000 people!! pick it up!!

stay only few days at home, it was short!! miss home, miss kuching!!

meet up with few friends!! long time no see, everyone change!!

feeling very odd, lost of purpose, loss of hope!!

just dont know why, it is just another lie of the enemy.

get back to sibu, routine again,

ward, clinic, bed side teaching, study, and basketball, watch movies,

Father, thank you, for u revive me again!!

Lord, i want to keep on hearing Your great love,

to strengthen my faith and my walk with You.

Lest not the lies of the enemy grasp me away!!

Lord, let Your will be done in my life as in Rebekah's life!!

You pick her out of normal ordinary day!!

Lord i know You have great plan for me out of my norm!!

Let Yours not mine,

thanks for granting me the desire in my heart!!

Blessed the Lord, Forever and ever!! Amen!!

See U in Kuching!!

2006-08-30T10:12:00.000+08:00

going back home this afternoon!!!(Home sweet Home)

driving back with pajero for 6 hours!!

slept early last night, so to avoid sleeping while driving(dangerous!!)

planet shakers' night of fire tmr night!!

skip friday class(so dare!!)

see u in Kuching!!

Basketball

2006-08-28T13:33:00.000+08:00

basketball,

my birthday present.

flame up the fire that dim for long,

to burn my passion and also calories,

to get slim is my goal,

improve shooting and rebounding,

making friends through playing,

losing, winning, no meaning,

just to enjoy and keep sweating.

He is there watching,

see me enjoy His blessing,

thank you Father for giving,

giving me friends and caring.

Joshua, happy birthday!!

2006-08-25T10:06:00.000+08:00

happy birthday!!

first time celebrate birthday far away from home!!

this year is the greatest birthday celebration i ever have!!

all my coursemate celebrate for me!!

so i have 3 celebrations separately, and eaten 3 cakes!!

happy birthday, joshua!!

Mirror, Mirror on the wall!!

2006-08-25T09:32:00.001+08:00

Do you ever take time to look at the mirror?

What do you see?

Do you only look at the outward apperance of yourself?

or you only see the distended tummy, wrinkles on the forehead,

or pimples that are going to burst on your face?

Or are you just looking at your hair styles and keep combing your hair?

I was looking at the mirror, for quite sometimes!!

I begin to smile.

Every time i walk in the ward, i will just smile to the patients,

their relatives, doctors, and nurses,

they give me a warm smile in response.

When i smile, the person in the mirror give me a same warm smile.

Is that Joshua?

Yes. He is.

He is handsome and gentle.

Knowing him is my joy and my pleasure.

He has grown up into his 22nd year!!

I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!!

2006-08-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

6 weeks has over, another 6 weeks, this surgical posting will end!! what have i learn? do i not work hard enough? No. but it seem like i really dont know anything!! to study in the medical school never a easy job, not only aquired knowledge and clinical skills, also character building. this degree is 2 in 1. if u ask me, do i think of giving up? yes. when i feel frustrated, when the reading works seem like never end, when realize that i dont know even the simple things, when i realize that someone do better than me(is not comparing, but the simple thing that everyone should know, but i dont know), i want to qiut.

when i stay in this giving up state, i foung that i have lost, not only purpose, also hope. where should i go, it seem like no way. one year in sibu, live alone, what else can i do!! yes, christian brothers and sisters will say some encourage words, but how long will i last? it is easy to say all the encouragement, i did that most of the time, but how many times, u will realize that it is not just words. the dissapointment will keep on coming.

i have lost the battle, even when i know that Jesus has won it for me. believing make me blind, i see nothting, cant see him. the peace which was there, some times, it has gone.

HEH, JOSHUA, WAKE UP, FAITH COMES BY HEARING AND HEARING THE WORD OF GOD!! KEEP ON HEARING THE GOOD NEWS!! IF YOU CONTINUE HERING THE LIES OF THE ENEMIES, YOU WILL LOST EVEN WHEN YOU JESUS HAS WON THE BATTLE FOR YOU!!!

AMEN, I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THROUGH HIM WHO LOVES ME.

live everyday!!

2006-08-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

another case write up to pass up, cant find a good case, cause patients limited!! again this same examiner, he will not only mark my content but my english as well!! this time, i have to put more effort to do the best, give me alot of pressure!! huh, now sitting in front of the computer, no confident to write at all!! really hope this day will be over!!

last night on call, was chatting with few patients' relatives during visiting hours, it is so nice to chat with them!! have a great 'yesterday'.

everyday looking forward for tomorrow, because there will be a better tomorrow. what do u think? i just want to live today, cause today is joyful enough with Him who loves me!! looking back what happen yesterday, i feel today is better!! so, it must be a better tomorrow, and eternity the best!! it is true in Him who loves me, amen!!

2006-08-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT LOVE?

Poor English :<

2006-08-09T09:34:00.000+08:00

'poor english', these two words is stated in red in my case write-up, and i get the lowest mark in the group!! one week before, this same prof encourage me, said that my presentation was the best in the group!! Yup, i know my English at least can be use in communication but not in writing!! at least i can read, i can talk with simple english!!

after chatting with my old dear friend, she encourage me a lot, she always like a little angel that is assign in my life, her words was at the right time, she make me recall the day that i started learning my english!! remember in my form 4, i was inspire by one Indian teacher to learn my english, but during that time, i was taught by Miss Lau Bee Hong, i really dont understand what she teach, not because she is not good in teaching but i am the factor, i really 'catch no ball'. this is the words that i can say during that time. But, the Indian teacher encourage me to learn english in his house, every thrusday will go to his house together with this little angel and Fook Ann. this little angel, she encourage me to learn ever tough is hard. sometimes, she willing to teach this baby-english learner. Thank you, my little angel. on the other hand, i learn in church!! Broken english is enough for me to communicate!! i never cease to try. Yes, sometimes frustreted but nothing is happen innate. learning is always a process, never ending but the more u go, the go u get!!

to publish this blog is also one of my step, never see the tree, but just plant this very small seed!! but it will produce fruits one day!! yes, ther is still far to go, but really thank God, i have came this far!! i want to give Him glory in this Jesusshine blog. by the way, i came in medical school not because i have good english or good skill, but is all by His grace. Amen!~!

i have a complain!!

2006-08-08T13:17:00.000+08:00

i have a complain!!! dont know who to complain!! after so many weeks i realise and see all the different characters of the medical students!! I also see how the way the seniors, i mean HOs, MOs and some of the specialists doing!! i have the same feelings with some of my friends, we are not happy with the way they treat patients!! they never care about the feeling of the patients!! i am nobody, i have not much knowlegde compare to them, i have no right to complain, but......

is everyone will have to behave like that as they have become a doctor? i rather not become a doctor then!! ya, they know very much, but treating patients not with medication but with love lah!!! sorry, a bit of emotional disturd!! if i am the patient, i just refuse to be treated, i rather suffer in pain!! we have learn how to act like a doctor, so just act like one lah!! isn't it we have been taught to cure sometimes, to relieve often and to comfort always? at least practice it mah!! i am not better, even tough i dont know how painful is it but at least i will never dare to hurt patient fellings!! every time i see patients feel pain, the same pain was hurting me!!

make a complain in the Jesusshine blog, is a prayer to Him who loves me.

Father, i will never know how much Jesus suffer the pain for me, but i know He has redeem all the pain. Lord, i pray that every patients that my hand has laid upon, even just a finger touch, let their pain relieve and the symptoms loose, in Jesus name, amen!!
Short prayer, but He answers, thank You, Jesus!!

pillow talk

2006-08-07T13:23:00.000+08:00

last night was preparing for exam, but we end up in a big conversation!!! the hot topic--relationship!! most of the housemate already has found their very 'Own'. So, almost every night I will see someone at the balcony talking to phone, somewhere outside the house, on the bed. they are on 'CALL', on 'CALL' not meaning that working extra time in the wad but making a call for extra long long time!! wow, that is the effort they put in the relationship!!

i was so impressed by one friend with low profile until he willing to share with us his 4 years relationship with a good girl!! His principle is that no 'flowerish language', 'flower money', and flower time', (sorry, this will only make sense when it is in mandrine). He being honest in the relationship and put less effort in term of doing unnessary things like purposely do something to make the girl happy, two of them are so secure in the relationship!! another of my friend having two girlfriends at the same time, he face some problems at the moment, of course this is the price that he need to paid, he make a very important desicion in the pillow talk is to settle the issue and get change!! gumbate!!

as for me, i really learn a lot in the pillow talk, being the one so quite in the talk, really is an eye-opener for me!! i heard of how that one guy go after so many girls easily with all the techniques and another guy so faithful to the one He loves!! of course, romance and love that i thought only occur in the movie, now has been so real to me!! wow, all the while, i am just so shallow in my 'knowledge'.

In Jesusshine blog, i pray a pure and perfect love to those who walk in His love.

human nature!!

2006-08-02T12:59:00.000+08:00

human nature~~~need attention!!!

during one bed side teaching, the Dr said something like this human nature is to get attention from others, the patient will complain pain and when we ask them how severe is that pain, they will always say very painful, ask them to give the score from 1 to 5, they will always give 5 to say it is very very painful but actually not that really painful from our finding!! this is really true not only in the hospital but everyone!!

i need attetion too!! much more in the eyes of my community and my peers!! a lot of people feel that they are not significance, u feel like that also, rite? what will u do? i will trying to do something to get the approval!! trying and trying!! to gain favor!! to be good, to do good, and to act good!! i find out that many times it doesnt work!!

Lord, i thank you that i no need to do something good, to gain ur attention, ur favor and ur love!! You have given me all, that You have make me secure!! i am the bestest in ur eyes!! thank You, Father!! now The Spirit has overcome my human nature!! He has witness with me the loving kindness of our Lord Jesus Christ!!

in lack!!

2006-08-01T12:07:00.000+08:00

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

this Psalm mean so much to me at this very moment!! i am in lack because i never look to my shepherd!! i choose to look at him!!! i shall not be in want!! Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life!!! check in my bank account, the money bank in is only RM 1450!! they have deducted RM 1000 for the whole year payment of my hostel!! i pay all my hutang for all my medical books which cost me RM900 something!! the money that i borrow every semester is RM 35oo, after deducted the fee, usually have RM2400 left but now only RM1450!! do i need to compromise for my one tenth which i will left only RM2oo!! how to survive with that for half a year? Lord u are my shepherd, i shall not be in want!!You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, You anoint my head with oil; my cup run over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorrow!!

2006-07-27T12:41:00.000+08:00

Sorrow moment also when patient of yours died, not on the spot but u see on the next day, patient was not on the bed anymore and u reliase that they went just without teling u!! i dunno how i will react?? u cant react cause it make no changes!!The patient has gone but the truth is that he or she might not heard about Jesus!!
one aunty only 36 years old with 4 children and was done surgery for few times, and now again with a new diagnosis!! i am very close with her, and all sudden she ask me if i can help her, yes without any hesistation, i say if i can helf, i will. she was telling me in hakka that she want to died and if i can help her to donate all her organs to those who need them!! try to guess was is my reaction!! no tears of course, but my heart just cut with deep insicion!!!
what can i do?
in Jesusshine daily blog, i pray for her salvation including healing. amen!!

2006-07-26T13:53:00.000+08:00

what u expect to see in the hospital?? healing? i see death almost everyday!! the patient u saw last night, today he has left!! not that i fear death but where are they going now? they might dont know Jesus!! i cant help but tears accumulate in my heart!! u cant easily see the tears rolling down to my chin, but deep inside my heart i cannot express it out through tears and emotion, that is why i keep the tears in my heart!! anatomically, heart is confine within a capsule, any extra fluid collected in between heart and this capsule, cause the heart cannot pump which is call cardiac tempornate and at the end heart failure then death!!

So sorry to express my feeling in this Jesusshine dailyblog!! i really dont want to be diagnose with cardiac tempornate where my tears all collected in my heart!!

wait=Believing on God's word!!

2006-07-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

wait!! see nothing, and yet wait blindly? what are u waiting for? the life on earth is to wait for the glory that the Lord is going to bring us to!! friends ask me, why did God want to create us and let us stay in this fallen world? i cant wait to going back!! there are so much suffering!! the waiting process always take us to be patient and hope!! if u see it, then it is not of hope!! paul said present sufferings cannot compare to the glory which is to come!! there is a greater thing ahead which we do not see!! that's why faith is not by sight, but based on God words!! how many times u see yourself rigtheous? but the word of God say so!! wait until u see it, that will be the day when meet again in heaven loh!! wait is by believing u are rigtheous, and indeed u are rigtheous!!

the waiting process itself is faith!! it is truly "wait blindly", cause whatever u see will not be faith!! But it is always based on the word of God!! this waiting is a believing action on what God said!! Jesus tell the disciple to go, and make disciple of all nation, but later he ask them to stay in Jerrusalem and wait!! Because the power is going to fill them!! Before they go and preach, they wait by faith because Jesus' words and after that they preach, 3000 get saved!! that is the action of waiting which is by faith and believing God's word!! remember the time on earth is waiting--which is believing the promise of God!! we are waiting with the word of God which He has already done all the things, U want healing, He has given, U need money, He has given, suscess? He has given, relationship? He has given!! you haven't see it, That's right, wait--Believeing it now!!

While on earth we are waiting for The day to come, We are waiting with faith, by faith, and through faith!!

2006-07-14T09:02:00.000+08:00

Everyday sitting on the bed are patients who suffer from pain, discomfort, difficulties in breathing, difficulties in moving. some of them are waiting for their final!! i can never feel the pain, the Lord has redeemed me!! but to be the best in my expertise, to sympathize and care for the patients, i really need to feel their pain, they need my gentle care!! still i cant!! As the Lord care for us, He went through what we had went through, and giving all He has to exchange with us!! He first suffer the pain and took it from us!! I really thank God that Jesus went through the pain, the hurts that struggle me, that He took it away!! Lord, thank you for the finish work that i might rest in it!! Rest??

in Hebrews Capther 4
Therefore, while the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us fear lest any of you should seem to have failed to reach it. For good news came to us just as to them, but the message they heard did not benefit them, because they were not united by faith with those who listened. For we who have believed enter that rest, as he has said,“As I swore in my wrath,‘They shall not enter my rest,’” although his works were finished from the foundation of the world. For he has somewhere spoken of the seventh day in this way: “And God rested on the seventh day from all his works.” And again in this passage he said, “They shall not enter my rest.”
Since therefore it remains for some to enter it, and those who formerly received the good news failed to enter because of disobedience, again he appoints a certain day, “Today,” saying through David so long afterward, in the words already quoted, “Today, if you hear his voice,do not harden your hearts.” For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken of another day later on. So then, there remains a Sabbath rest for the people of God, for whoever has entered God's rest has also rested from his works as God did from his. Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience. For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

The Finish Work of the cross, when Jesus said it is finish, it is finish!! so that this is the rest that again he appoints a certain day, “Today,” saying through David “Today, if you hear his voice,do not harden your hearts.” strive is always means believing by faith, if we labour for the rest, then it would not be rest!! they cannot enter because of thier unbelieve!! Hebrews 4 verse 1 start with saying let us fear lest us failed to reach it.. all refered back to capther 3 last verse 19 So we see that they were unable to enter because of unbelief. Remember it is the matter of ur believe to enter that rest!!

with this, Jesusshine daily blog want you to believe and enter the rest!!

2006-07-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

Can you imagine the Lord sick while He walked on earth? No, our Lord Jesus was never sick! He was vibrant, full of life and full of health. A woman who had a bleeding condition for 12 years was healed immediately when she touched the hem of His garment. If the hem of His garment was soaked with His health, vibrancy, energy and divine radiance, how much more His body!
“And as many as touched Him were made well” (Mark 6:56), for “power went out from Him and healed them all”. (Luke 6:19) When He told His disciples, “Take, eat; this is My body”, it is the health and life that given to us!! He is the bread of life, from now it change my view of taking Holy Communion!!! it is power and i must take it with this revelation!!!!
we should practice it anytime because it remind us and proclaim the health and life to our body!!
Let us practice together after this Jesusshine daily blog, be vibrant, full of life and full of health!!

2006-07-12T14:22:00.000+08:00

today the 3rd day in sibu, general hospital not pack, my schedule pack!! There are so many things that i dont know(History taking and physical examination) but i have to do it and present it to lectures!! Can u imagine to let a blind man to search a black cat in the darkroom? That is how my situation in!! at night study in the small room until 1-2am, so much of reading i have to do but still cant see the ending, forget this is just the beginning, can u see how tired i am now? Home sick even in the midst of my buzy!! finance, housework, study, stress...... thinking of food, thinking of the nessary need that going to buy.. thinking of when PTPTN going to bank in my account.. thinking of how to servive with only left RM5 in the wallet!! all seem like bigger than my God.. i have no idea how long i can stand, all i do now is just put my trust in Him, not by sight but by faith. find rest in Him!! looking forward to join wesley methodist and aslo bethany sibu!!1

2006-07-07T14:40:00.000+08:00

John 5:14, “…c u r well again. Stop sinning o something worse may happen to u”.
and after reading from my friend about mt 11:20-24, it make a lot of the believers scared. i dont really know what is the meaning from behind, but let me ensure you, are you a believer of Jesus Christ? do you believe He is God, He died for your sin and He rose up from the death? so, You are perfectly rigtheous and you are going to heaven. noone can take this assurance away not even the Devil but only God. But if He who judge, judge not but interceeding for you day and night, are you not 100% assured?

What do you think righteousness is about? Something you do or something you are? Right doing or right being? God imputes righteousness not to those who strive to obey the law (Galatians 2:16), but to anyone who simply believes in His Son. Because Christ took our sins and gave us His righteousness (2 Corinthians 5:21), the moment we believe in Him, God treats us as righteous apart from our works or obedience. (Romans 4:5-8) This is new-covenant righteousness!! a righteousness that comes by faith and not works.

Be bless again in Jesusshine daily blog!!

2006-07-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

feeling? Is it love? Friends around me tell me that i feel this is the right one, i am sure this is the right one? how u feel it? feelings comes and go, i might fall in love with somebody, but what if we have to separate for quite some time, and reliaze that i am not even thinking of her anymore, is that love? yes, i might say i like her very much, what if i realize that 10 years later i have no interest to her anymore, is that love? that is my feeling, feeling change with time, it may strengthen with time, it may also fade with time! through out my life, i built my feeling on a lot of girls also boys, don't miss understand i am not gay, so we become good friends. sometimes, i have over exceed my feeling toward some girls, then i thought it is love, but it end up with sadness and sorrow!! if love is feeling, it should be sweet and nice, right? who want love to be sorrow and fear. instead, true love cast out fear!!!

love is not feeling but it is beyond feeling!! unless you find the real love, or else you dont understand love!! Love is God and God is love!! unless u know God, or else You doesnt know love!! this is not only for you, also for me!! i need to know God first to know love!!

2006-07-05T11:29:00.000+08:00

Yes, it is true that every life has a story to tell!! Our life is a book on it own, every incidence is the content and the author of our life will be our Father in Heaven!! He decided the plot of our life, the purpose He wrote this book is to show others how He loves us and to reveal His glory to others!! I am glad to become the main character of my book, you too my friend has been the main character of your own book. Be bless when you begin to pen down your life because He has bless us so much, don’t worry you may not know how to write your next chapter of life, He will hold your pen and bring it to completion in Christ Jesus. It will be a book with power to touch life!!

2006-05-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

this is another week!! last sunday received sms from one freind, remind me that my week will be favored and to God i am the fragrance in christ!! i will touch life for those unsave and saved friends!! here is the testimonies!!! Praise God!! truly my week is favored!! early the week, i was spent time with friends and offer my hand when there is help!! also spent a lot of times with family!! Praise God for holiday, i am blessed and also my relationship wiht others strengthen as i spent time with them!!

on thursday, i was offered a job, so i have some income, thanks to God, my provision for the camp comes from Him, Amen!! working at the voter seach center, tiring and boring, But thank God, i meet people and also God trained me to relate more with stranger!! sunday cant go to church because of work, but my heart will still worship God!! whereever i am, i want to worship Him!! my worship to God is everyday of my life, even my secret time!! when i am alone, the things that i do, God see it, i will have to worship Him there too!! honestly, sometimes i fall into temptation, but He still love me, i really thank God For His love. Father, u knew me, and u still love me!! thank you, Father!! i just want to continue receive ur grace, as ur grace will lead me to repentance!! truely, when i reminded of ur love, there is no way i fall into sin, but as i feel condemn and guilt, that is when i sin like crazy, Lord i want to held by ur love!!

Praise His holy name!!
i am held by ur love, Lord!!

2006-05-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

yesterday, clean the new house!! It is good to have a house but more important a family!! U can have a lot of money and buy a big house but u cant buy family!! the love and warm of a family cannot be found in the big and beautiful house!!

my holidays is full with joy, i have not arrange or plan my holidyas so that i wont waste my holidays, but it seem everything planned and all i need to do is just take part and enjoy!! wow!!

cant tell much details here but it is great!! so much of rest and peace and love!! these is heavenly life on earth as the Lord blessed us!! Thank you, Jesus!! it is easy to forget what the Lord has done every single little thing in our life when u didnt written down somewhere!! the Lord goodness is so much, i promise i will continue to keep record every part of my life and will publish here! or else is very easy for us to forget what God has done in our life!! here will be the real life testimonies that bring Him glory!!

2006-05-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

weeks after weeks, there are so many things happen!! The Lord has bring me through a lot of wonderful experince!! last thursday and friday were Sport days. helping up in the kindness projects, it was a joyful time. looking at the younger ones running 100m, 200m, 400m, Wow!! that are so great!! reminded of Audrey in west M'sia also was having sport days not long ago!! They all run a good race with medals!!i wish i can run like that, me?Ha, running this race call life!! it is not ralley types, so i have to run this race on my own, i want to run to the destination but i cannt see how the race track look like!! is it a lot of corners, or just straigth? i cant see, but i trust in the Lord who make my path straigth, anything that come my ways, the Lord is with Me!! Alexis, jolina and grace were injured in the race, but that is only physical hurt, it heals fast. How about the traumas and injuries that happen in the path of life? Dont know when will it heals!! Lord, i want to win the medals for u, but all the most run with me!

2006-04-25T13:33:00.000+08:00

Holiday is just great!! Thank God for holidays!! thinking of after two months, i will have to leave kuching for Sibu!! i miss kuching and everyone in Kuching!! Pa, Ma, Ling, Cu, i miss u all!! Ps, thanks for teaching me so much and have been so patient with me!! God has put a new season and a new level for me, i will have to go!!! my bro and sis in beth, continue carry the vision of bethany, we are one family, even tough u are new but u are part of us!! Help ps carry the Load, he has carry so much!! Ps, you love us so much, i never express it from my heart but i love u too!! Father, Your blessing continue to shower Bethany!!!

we always look back to the past, of course we cant see our future, that's why we tend to look back to the error but God see our future and He always see our excel!! Even since the begining, He has plan it to the end!! So He see us in His glory, the one in Christ likeness!!

yesterday is an experience, today is experiment and tomorrow is an expectation, So use ur experience for the experiment to see the better expectation!!

2006-04-23T15:41:00.000+08:00

thursday, I was witnessing my friend baptism. She was a devoted Buddhist before, but God touch her, and now she knows the only true God is Jesus!! She decided to baptize even her parents were against her!! She will face them when she going back for this holiday, but she still whole heartedly follow after Jesus!! Sudden thought of my friend in KL, her parents were not agree for her to baptize too, so just want to encourage her, be strong in God!!

i get B for my final, praise God!! it is truely a blessing to be His child, i am blessed!! was thinking to share in church, but anyway here is another place where i give glory to God!!

2006-04-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

Jesus, U are great!! U won the victory!! U have risen and U are sitted at the right hand of the Father!! Glory to U, Lord!!

Friends, we can never understand His love, unless we experince it!! Our life on earth is going to love others like He did!! Can u? His spirit live in us!! the love, joy, peace shall reveal in our life!! this will exposed itself if u start to live according to the Spirit!! can i? I am the temple of the Holy Spirit!! The fruit of the Spirit will be reveal!! Lord, Thank You!! I allow ur spirit to guide me!! my emotion and my desire lead me to sorrow but Ur Spirit lead me to Joy!!

2006-04-15T09:40:00.000+08:00

Damai Beach

i like the beach and ocean!!! thursday, we went to the Damai beach, even just for a while, i was there starring at God creations!! it is owesome!! alone, sitting under the coconut trees, i just look to the far and endless ocean!! the cruises, the fishing boats...... Father, you are owesome!! what is happen to the other end of the ocean? is there any end? is there anyone there also doing the samething as me? hoping to see what is the other end of the ocean!! it is just like our life, the ocean is so endless, we cant see the other side of the ocean, God is just owesome!! i start to love the ocean since young, God put dreams in my heart!! He knows one day i will see the other end of the ocean!! this has been my hope and my dream since after that. one cf camp, i find this hope through this ocean!! i find Him through a lost key that drop in the sea!! owesome? He put hope and he let me find hope!! i found it!! thank you, father!!

2006-04-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

"God forgives, we forget",
that's why we feel guilty!!!
"God forgives, He forgets",
He keeps no record of wrongs!!!

Therefore let us come to Him with boldness!!!

2006-04-07T15:02:00.001+08:00

Thinking for so long to create a blog, now i decided to let my closest friends to read my broken english!! Of course, i was inspired by friends to writing this blog!! I believe this Blog is only use to shine for Jesus!!! Everyday life is God written words of me in the book of life!! He keeps no record of wrongs, and if i want to read this book of life that God has writen of me, it is not going to be short because i have done so much wrong, but it will still going to be long because He has a great plan fo me. He see beyond the bad things and turn it into good!!He recorded all the suscess because it is His glory that is reveal in me!! What i write here might not be the same of what God has writen in the book of life because the Book of life that God has written for me is a great book!! So, dont compare what has i write here. What i write here is just a glimps of His goodness in my life. Praise God!!